Los Lagos

Sometimes it's hard to feel self-confident. I envy you ladies who know exactly who you are, because I feel like I'm still discovering myself in terms of art/style/etc, but I suppose the journey is what makes it worthwhile.





Today after sculpture class, I ventured into the bathroom and someone had stuck a zen koan on the door. Koans are Zen Buddhist stories designed to make you think intuitively rather than rationally. I like to think of them as ignition for being a curious thinker. This is the most well-known koan:

"Two hands clap and there is a sound; what is the sound of one hand?"

This is the one I saw today:

When Banzan was walking through a market, he overheard a conversation between a butcher and his customer.
"Give me the best piece of meat you have," said the customer.
"Everything in my shop is the best," replied the butcher. And hearing this, Banzan became enlightened.

After a while I thought about it again and in a subtle way I think it helped. Perhaps it means that we should look at each moment we have as the best, or each word should be our best or at each attempt we should give our all and look forward confidently that the next will be even better.



I try to stay grounded when I feel the most down. I remind myself not to hold myself to sky-high standards. I also look to the ones I love who love me for who I am, not who I wish I could be.



Hope that wasn't too deep! See you guys soon, stay grounded. :)